All of a sudden I have this profound feeling of optimism. It's as if my life suddenly has a purpose again. I feel like I can accomplish anything. Life is good.
I am in the midst of starting a new chapter, somewhere new, with someone familiar. I am so excited yet nervous, also. I hope when I get to BC things will work out how we have planned. I'm sure things will be amazing.
I have these constant thoughts swirling in my head about what I'll do when I get there, where will I go to finish school. I'm really hoping to get into this journalism program at Kwantlen Tech. My passion for writing and telling the world important stories has not left me. I still hope to accomplish all that I set out to do so long ago. Maybe I will find an internship or a position at The Vancouver Sun, or another equally significant newspaper. It's always been my dream, and I do love interviewing and reporting. I can't wait to find out what lies ahead and hopefully find some new opportunities.
I know I haven't written in a while, so this might be a long one. I think I will sleep better once all my thoughts are written down. I can't forget the power of self expression. It always helps to get things out into the open.
There are a lot of things I'm looking forward to. The decision to move two provinces away from everything I've come to know sounds really intimidating. I think the hardest part will be saying goodbye to everyone. I'm nervous but so confident that it will be for the best. If not now, then when? You only live once. Every time I would weigh my options, the decision to go always won. It's what I'm looking forward to and it's where my heart belongs.
I imagine my life taking shape the way it was meant to. It feels great. Though in reality I'm not currently making enough money and I'm not in any classes, that's okay because I know things can only get better from here. I'll finally get to be with the one I love, live somewhere near the ocean that isn't -20 degrees right now, and just start fresh. There's no better feeling than knowing life will actually be okay.
On this day 21 years ago, my baby sister was born. For me. My mom didn't want me to grow up lonely. I'm so glad she's here. I love her so much and will probably miss her the most when I leave. She's one of the only people I tell everything to, and feel safe knowing there's never any judgment. I know we will still talk, but hopefully we stay close. That's one thing I'll truly miss is that I won't really have that girl time anymore. Maybe we'll just have to have awesome skype dates.
I'm writing this on my iPod laying in bed, waiting for sleep to take me over. I'm wide awake and ready to fly at this very moment, but for now I wait until the new chapter really begins. I hope it leads to an amazing story that I'll be proud to call my life.
Xoxo
