It's the middle of summer and things are going relatively okay. Aside from not having a job, I miraculously started seeing someone. I'm afraid to say it's going pretty well so far but this is still so new. I wonder if it will turn into anything? I guess I'll have to wait and see.
I'm hoping things will all work out. My main concern is not having enough money to go back to school this fall. I have to go back though. I'd rather not stay in Portage another year, and I don't want to start paying back student loans. I'm pretty hopeful though that it will all pull through.
I'm so fascinated when someone says they like me. This guy actually seems sincere and wants me for more than one thing. Its kind of refreshing actually. How jaded I must be thinking this way but it's true. I haven't seriously dated anyone in about 5 years now. I'm only used to high school relationships. I've spent the rest of my time just having fun, not taking anyone seriously. Though I could have, but we never really get what we want. I think there's something about this guy that just might stick, however.
The beginning of relationships are so interesting. It's exciting and fun, getting to know someone, developing that chemistry, it can be magical really. I try to hide my doubts below the surface just enough to feel some optimism. So far so good. Dating is really fun in the summer time. There's so much to do. Going to the fair for instance, sneaking in can of booze and sitting by the lake just enjoying the moment. I love it. Being told you're beautiful everyday isn't too bad either.
I haven't been someone's girlfriend in a really long time. I kind of wish I was. It's nice having someone care about you aside from your parents and friends. I think I make a pretty good girlfriend from what I remember. I always try to be okay with being the fun single girl but it can get pretty lonely sometimes. It's nice going out on dates and having someone to get dressed up for other than yourself. I really missed it. I hope this turns into something. We'll see how it goes.
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