Why is it that I always end up finding the biggest a-holes around? It turns out the 'nice guy' I met turned out to be a douchebag du jour. As usual. I mean I've been lied to before, I just really hoped it wouldn't happen again. How do people find the nerve to be so deceiving? "Oh I just broke up with someone". Yeah, right. I knew something wasn't right about this one. I've learned to always trust my instincts when it comes to men. I had a feeling he was hiding something and I was right. I don't know if I'll ever be able to trust someone. I might as well just stay single. I'd rather have fun than get hurt.
I really hope things turn around soon. I'm sick of sitting around doing nothing everyday. I need a job and I need to go back to school. Things really need to get moving. I also really want to lose weight. I'm sick of what I see in the mirror. I just feel like screaming, 'Come on life, let's get going!' I know it's up to me to get the ball rolling.
I need to start setting some goals, otherwise the days just pass by and pile up into wasted opportunities. One of my immediate goals is to start losing weight. Tomorrow is the start of another week and where my journey will begin.
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Sunday, July 10, 2011
hot and humid romance
It's the middle of summer and things are going relatively okay. Aside from not having a job, I miraculously started seeing someone. I'm afraid to say it's going pretty well so far but this is still so new. I wonder if it will turn into anything? I guess I'll have to wait and see.
I'm hoping things will all work out. My main concern is not having enough money to go back to school this fall. I have to go back though. I'd rather not stay in Portage another year, and I don't want to start paying back student loans. I'm pretty hopeful though that it will all pull through.
I'm so fascinated when someone says they like me. This guy actually seems sincere and wants me for more than one thing. Its kind of refreshing actually. How jaded I must be thinking this way but it's true. I haven't seriously dated anyone in about 5 years now. I'm only used to high school relationships. I've spent the rest of my time just having fun, not taking anyone seriously. Though I could have, but we never really get what we want. I think there's something about this guy that just might stick, however.
The beginning of relationships are so interesting. It's exciting and fun, getting to know someone, developing that chemistry, it can be magical really. I try to hide my doubts below the surface just enough to feel some optimism. So far so good. Dating is really fun in the summer time. There's so much to do. Going to the fair for instance, sneaking in can of booze and sitting by the lake just enjoying the moment. I love it. Being told you're beautiful everyday isn't too bad either.
I haven't been someone's girlfriend in a really long time. I kind of wish I was. It's nice having someone care about you aside from your parents and friends. I think I make a pretty good girlfriend from what I remember. I always try to be okay with being the fun single girl but it can get pretty lonely sometimes. It's nice going out on dates and having someone to get dressed up for other than yourself. I really missed it. I hope this turns into something. We'll see how it goes.
I'm hoping things will all work out. My main concern is not having enough money to go back to school this fall. I have to go back though. I'd rather not stay in Portage another year, and I don't want to start paying back student loans. I'm pretty hopeful though that it will all pull through.
I'm so fascinated when someone says they like me. This guy actually seems sincere and wants me for more than one thing. Its kind of refreshing actually. How jaded I must be thinking this way but it's true. I haven't seriously dated anyone in about 5 years now. I'm only used to high school relationships. I've spent the rest of my time just having fun, not taking anyone seriously. Though I could have, but we never really get what we want. I think there's something about this guy that just might stick, however.
The beginning of relationships are so interesting. It's exciting and fun, getting to know someone, developing that chemistry, it can be magical really. I try to hide my doubts below the surface just enough to feel some optimism. So far so good. Dating is really fun in the summer time. There's so much to do. Going to the fair for instance, sneaking in can of booze and sitting by the lake just enjoying the moment. I love it. Being told you're beautiful everyday isn't too bad either.
I haven't been someone's girlfriend in a really long time. I kind of wish I was. It's nice having someone care about you aside from your parents and friends. I think I make a pretty good girlfriend from what I remember. I always try to be okay with being the fun single girl but it can get pretty lonely sometimes. It's nice going out on dates and having someone to get dressed up for other than yourself. I really missed it. I hope this turns into something. We'll see how it goes.
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