I love my job. Working in a coffee shop is so fun. Making drinks for people is probably my favourite part about it. I love steaming the milk, pouring espresso, adding the whipped cream. It's so simple, but yet it yields such a great sense of accomplishment when a drink is properly made. I think it really is an art. And it's so delicious!
Though I don't work at Starbucks anymore, I do work in another coffee shop- Finales. It's an independent business that hasn't franchised further into the city yet. It's a good feeling working somewhere not so big and corporate. I like being part of something original and unique. I also love that we don't have to wear hats. My boss is thoroughly awesome. I only live 5 minutes away yet he insists on driving me home during closing shifts. Also, I missed a shift by accident yesterday and he said it was no big deal, he was just concerned that I was alright. I think I have found my new work family. Though I do miss the Starbucks crew from time to time. It will always be a part of me, as lame as that sounds.
I used to think carrying a Starbucks cup made me superior to others, which it sort of did, but then again if I'm holding any kind of coffee cup I get this good sense of establishment in the world. I don't know why, just holding onto coffee makes me feel important. Maybe it's because I'm used to seeing celebs being photographed with Starbucks in their hand all the time.
Today, apparently is International Coffee Day.I celebrated by buying a cup at Co-op this afternoon and also by making a cinnamon latte at work tonight. The latte was the tastier cup of the day by far. Who else is a coffee lover out there? I know I'm not the only one!
Making coffee isn't like my ultimate dream job but I do enjoy it for now. I do love the idea of owning my own shop with maybe a bookstore in it, but I'm not so sure I'd be a good business owner. I might need to be more organized than I am to succeed at that. It's always been an idea of mine, however.
So for now, I'll keep steaming up lattes for the masses and enjoying the cozy atmosphere of my job.
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Why am I single?
Apparently it's shocking that I'm single. Well, if you're on this side of the statement, not so much.
I've been single now for about 5 years. My last real "boyfriend" was in highschool- I got dumped, rasher harshly, via EMAIL on my first day of university. It was a good day. Until I went to check my messages... "Sorry, I don't want you anymore, buhbye."
Well thanks a lot. Jerk.
Anyway, much time has passed since then. I know it really didn't help that I wasn't over that guy until much later. Maybe I should've stopped sleeping with him? I guess that's where I live and learn. I should've dumped him when he didn't say I love you back. I would've avoided a lot of hurt. Oh well, c'est la vie.
So now what? I've been in university for a while now, and I guess living the single life was part of that. I've dated casually, but nothing ever got really serious. It could have a few times, but then there's me. Something was always holding me back. At times I was worried what other people would think, then there were the times when the certain 'chemistry' was off. Way off. Sorry, I need more to work with than that! I need someone that's a good fit for me, in more ways than one. I still have yet to find it.
Surprisingly I've never dated anyone I've met at school. This would seem the logical place to meet someone. We'd probably have similar interests, and he wouldn't be a total loser considering he's in college. Then again, that doesn't mean anything. I always seem to meet people in bars or through mutual friends. It never really just happens organically, like walking down the street, or on the bus, or in the grocery store. I've heard the grocery store is a good place. Then there's online dating. I've been dabbling in it, but I've never met anyone that way either.
Last summer I fell pretty hard. I was so in love with this one guy. He had it all- tall, dark, handsome. Ugh, so damn cute, muscles in all the right places. I hate that I was basically his rebound and it never really turned into anything real. It was the closest to a relationship I've had in a while, though. We would hang out nearly everyday. I even went to his hometown and met his family. But he was a yo-yo when it came to me. In the end, I just wasn't good enough. Too bad really. I could've loved him a lot. Maybe I did.
And that's how my luck goes. It seems I get a glimpse at what I could have, and then just like that, it's taken away. Or the guy is a complete asshole and the whole thing was a lie. That's happened more than once already, and it's too much. I can't believe how guys can just blatantly lie to you. "Oh, no I don't have a girlfriend." "No, I don't live with her." "I really like you". BULLSHIT. It's times like these that make me glad to be alone. I wonder if I'll ever actually be able to change my Facebook status? I think it's been single for the entire duration that I've had my account. I wonder if that's a record? Who can stay single the longest? Not that it really matters, but everyone knows if you're not "Facebook official", you aren't for real. Well then....
I don't want to settle for just anyone. That would be stooping way low. It's not like I have ridiculous standards to meet either. I just want someone that has a genuine interest in my well-being, and likes me as a person, not just a piece of ass. I'm really getting sick of playing that role, actually. I think it's high time I gave myself a little credit- I'm worth more than that. The ass is a bonus if you wanna be with me.
It's also just my luck that I happen to like someone nearly 3,000 miles away. Yeah, I guess I really do like making life harder than it has to be. Or it could just be seen as a challenge, or a new adventure. The adventure thing sounds appealing. I've always wanted to live by the ocean, maybe one day we'll be closer. Until then, it's just dreams and phone calls, texts and Facebook.
It's not that I haven't enjoyed being single. It's been fun, it's just getting kind of old at this point. I miss having that person around to tell things to, to go out on dates and have a reason to get dressed up. I know my name hasn't been synonymous with 'relationship' but I think I'd be good at it if I had a chance. From what I remember, it was sweet.
All I really want is for someone to call me babe. "Hey babe, how was your day?" I really miss it. Steady sex is also pretty awesome, too. Just sayin'. Oh, and I guess there's that love thing, also...
I've been single now for about 5 years. My last real "boyfriend" was in highschool- I got dumped, rasher harshly, via EMAIL on my first day of university. It was a good day. Until I went to check my messages... "Sorry, I don't want you anymore, buhbye."
Well thanks a lot. Jerk.
Anyway, much time has passed since then. I know it really didn't help that I wasn't over that guy until much later. Maybe I should've stopped sleeping with him? I guess that's where I live and learn. I should've dumped him when he didn't say I love you back. I would've avoided a lot of hurt. Oh well, c'est la vie.
So now what? I've been in university for a while now, and I guess living the single life was part of that. I've dated casually, but nothing ever got really serious. It could have a few times, but then there's me. Something was always holding me back. At times I was worried what other people would think, then there were the times when the certain 'chemistry' was off. Way off. Sorry, I need more to work with than that! I need someone that's a good fit for me, in more ways than one. I still have yet to find it.
Surprisingly I've never dated anyone I've met at school. This would seem the logical place to meet someone. We'd probably have similar interests, and he wouldn't be a total loser considering he's in college. Then again, that doesn't mean anything. I always seem to meet people in bars or through mutual friends. It never really just happens organically, like walking down the street, or on the bus, or in the grocery store. I've heard the grocery store is a good place. Then there's online dating. I've been dabbling in it, but I've never met anyone that way either.
Last summer I fell pretty hard. I was so in love with this one guy. He had it all- tall, dark, handsome. Ugh, so damn cute, muscles in all the right places. I hate that I was basically his rebound and it never really turned into anything real. It was the closest to a relationship I've had in a while, though. We would hang out nearly everyday. I even went to his hometown and met his family. But he was a yo-yo when it came to me. In the end, I just wasn't good enough. Too bad really. I could've loved him a lot. Maybe I did.
And that's how my luck goes. It seems I get a glimpse at what I could have, and then just like that, it's taken away. Or the guy is a complete asshole and the whole thing was a lie. That's happened more than once already, and it's too much. I can't believe how guys can just blatantly lie to you. "Oh, no I don't have a girlfriend." "No, I don't live with her." "I really like you". BULLSHIT. It's times like these that make me glad to be alone. I wonder if I'll ever actually be able to change my Facebook status? I think it's been single for the entire duration that I've had my account. I wonder if that's a record? Who can stay single the longest? Not that it really matters, but everyone knows if you're not "Facebook official", you aren't for real. Well then....
I don't want to settle for just anyone. That would be stooping way low. It's not like I have ridiculous standards to meet either. I just want someone that has a genuine interest in my well-being, and likes me as a person, not just a piece of ass. I'm really getting sick of playing that role, actually. I think it's high time I gave myself a little credit- I'm worth more than that. The ass is a bonus if you wanna be with me.
It's also just my luck that I happen to like someone nearly 3,000 miles away. Yeah, I guess I really do like making life harder than it has to be. Or it could just be seen as a challenge, or a new adventure. The adventure thing sounds appealing. I've always wanted to live by the ocean, maybe one day we'll be closer. Until then, it's just dreams and phone calls, texts and Facebook.
It's not that I haven't enjoyed being single. It's been fun, it's just getting kind of old at this point. I miss having that person around to tell things to, to go out on dates and have a reason to get dressed up. I know my name hasn't been synonymous with 'relationship' but I think I'd be good at it if I had a chance. From what I remember, it was sweet.
All I really want is for someone to call me babe. "Hey babe, how was your day?" I really miss it. Steady sex is also pretty awesome, too. Just sayin'. Oh, and I guess there's that love thing, also...
Sunday, September 25, 2011
A blast from the past
Recently I've been talking to an old flame. He's someone I've dated in the past during high school. We reconnected via Facebook about two months ago and ever since we've been talking nearly everyday. It seems a little crazy- he has a girlfriend and is a couple thousand miles away. At first our conversations were just friendly, but now they have developed into something more. We both claim we still have feelings for one another. I haven't physically seen this person in about 3 years. Maybe absence does make the heart grow fonder? I'm not sure how things are actually going to work out. There are a lot of things for us to consider if we planned on being together.
I have to admit that I do miss him. He was a good boyfriend, but I was young and stupid when we broke up. I thought he was too clingy. What I wouldn't give for that right now... Someone to love and be my 'everything'. I know I was his. I think about him everyday, we've even been dreaming about each other. Apparently I was the one that got away and he says there's still love there. It's all a lot to take in. It seems like we're living out this huge fantasy- which basically we are. We've only conversed via Facebook and texting, and the one slightly drunken phone call I made lastnight...who knows if it will actually turn into anything more? The fact that he has a girlfriend (who actually lives here in Winnipeg too) makes this whole thing seem really pointless. Why should I expect him to just leave her? I mean, he has hinted at it numerous times now, but I don't think it's going to actually happen. Sometimes I think it's just a waste of my time. Then other times I think how great we could be together. But then again, maybe it's all in my head?
I'd love the chance to be with someone who actually wants to be with me. I can tell that he does. The only obstacle we face is the girlfriend and the distance between us. I wouldn't mind moving somewhere beautiful if it meant starting a relationship just as beautiful... it could be, couldn't it? He tells me if I was in his arms again he'd never let me go. After years of being single, that might not be so bad. It sure is nice to hear, anyway. Our conversation on the phone last night was really nice. It was good to actually hear his voice after so long. It sort of makes the whole thing less impossible.
There's a big part of me that feels badly for interrupting his life. But then there's the other side of me that thinks if we were together it would be so amazing. Or maybe it's just my loneliness rearing its ugly, selfish, jealous head? I think there's more to it than that, though. I hope we get a chance to find out. I can't help but imagine my life with him in a new city, just living life to the fullest. From what I remember, being with him was really fun for the most part. We got a long, never really argued and just enjoyed each other's company. I think that since we've grown up it could be even better the second time around. I guess only time will tell.
I have to admit that I do miss him. He was a good boyfriend, but I was young and stupid when we broke up. I thought he was too clingy. What I wouldn't give for that right now... Someone to love and be my 'everything'. I know I was his. I think about him everyday, we've even been dreaming about each other. Apparently I was the one that got away and he says there's still love there. It's all a lot to take in. It seems like we're living out this huge fantasy- which basically we are. We've only conversed via Facebook and texting, and the one slightly drunken phone call I made lastnight...who knows if it will actually turn into anything more? The fact that he has a girlfriend (who actually lives here in Winnipeg too) makes this whole thing seem really pointless. Why should I expect him to just leave her? I mean, he has hinted at it numerous times now, but I don't think it's going to actually happen. Sometimes I think it's just a waste of my time. Then other times I think how great we could be together. But then again, maybe it's all in my head?
I'd love the chance to be with someone who actually wants to be with me. I can tell that he does. The only obstacle we face is the girlfriend and the distance between us. I wouldn't mind moving somewhere beautiful if it meant starting a relationship just as beautiful... it could be, couldn't it? He tells me if I was in his arms again he'd never let me go. After years of being single, that might not be so bad. It sure is nice to hear, anyway. Our conversation on the phone last night was really nice. It was good to actually hear his voice after so long. It sort of makes the whole thing less impossible.
There's a big part of me that feels badly for interrupting his life. But then there's the other side of me that thinks if we were together it would be so amazing. Or maybe it's just my loneliness rearing its ugly, selfish, jealous head? I think there's more to it than that, though. I hope we get a chance to find out. I can't help but imagine my life with him in a new city, just living life to the fullest. From what I remember, being with him was really fun for the most part. We got a long, never really argued and just enjoyed each other's company. I think that since we've grown up it could be even better the second time around. I guess only time will tell.
Monday, September 12, 2011
student life means living on the cheap
You know you're a university or college student when your bank account reads less than your age... I'm almost 23. Yippee for Ramen noodles and cheap pizza days! Today is Monday Madness at Pizza Hotline, pepperoni and red pepper anyone? It was an interesting choice...
Being in university again is great, I love being in class and seeing all my friends again and being in a cultured city with a lot to do. However I don't always have money to do the things I want. Luckily I just won concert tix to see Avril Lavigne. No paying for me! Other than that though, things can get pretty pricey when you live in a big city.
Public transportation alone is about $60 a month if you're a student. It's about $80 if you're not. I got it pretty lucky this year with two other roommates so rent is a bit cheaper, but tuition is still sky high, and of course I'm relying again on student loans. I haven't heard from them in almost two months, I really should get in contact. Something about phoning them scares me a little though, I don't want them to reject me! Just give me what I need. I promise I'm almost done!
In the mean time, here I am, on year 4 of my academic journey? Actually, it might even be 5... That really is sad when I'll only come out of this with a 3-year degree. *sigh* Maybe I should upgrade to a 4-year B.A.?
Anyway, how can I keep myself entertained on the cheap but still have a good time? Luckily I'm a lightweight when it comes to drinking...but we don't always have to drink to have a good time do we?
This past weekend I went on a road trip to Kenora with my cousin John. I only had to pay for my lunch! I guess it's good when you have relatives with vehicles who have that adventurous bone in their body. We also had a BBQ in the park this weekend with some other family members. It was a good time outside. Great burgers and corn on the grill. Yummie! I guess it doesn't take much to keep me satisfied.
Another good part about being a student is there are always socials and events happening around campus. I haven't been to one yet but I'm sure there will be one soon. It's a great way to meet people also. Cover charge is usually free with a student card and drinks are always under 5 dollars.
Another way to get some student deals is with a student price card (SPC). You can get discounts on most stores and also travel deals through Greyhound. I don't mind that going home only costs me about $14. In case anything major happens, that's good to know. I should probably go get my SPC then...
If you were lucky enough to score a job at a coffee shop like I did (I have yet to hear back from them this year) then you get amazing discounts on coffee, which really comes in handy when you're in the middle of an all nighter with ten pages due the next morning. Starbucks is awesome! 30% off everything, can't go wrong with cheap java! I really hope they call me soon!
Thrift Stores! What more can I say? I love a good deal on just about anything. MCC or Value Village are both good places to get stuff dirt cheap. I'm pretty sure they both give 10% off for being a student. Gotta love the perks! Life is going to suck once I graduate... maybe I'll end up being a coupon clipper?
Don't buy new electronics. Just keep using the really worn down slow-as-molasses laptop that you've had since you started uni. At least I'm saving a good chunk of change not being able to afford a new one. Oh how I wish I could! Old faithful is becoming unreliable these days...
Try to buy used textbooks. They are so expensive sometimes, it's really not worth it depending on how much you actually use the book. I'm hoping mine aren't too bad. I haven't actually went to the bookstore yet... Maybe I'll have to do Amazon this year. I hear they have good deals too.
If you're trying to stay in shape, being a student couldn't be more of a Godsend. At the U of W the fitness fee is included in our tuition at only $35/year. If that doesn't persuade anyone to hit the gym I don't know what will. I intend to take advantage. It's really now or never. Who's with me? I need a gym buddy! Pretty soon my life will be all about the GTL...Though I did just realize that the Fabutan down the street is no longer there. Perhaps I'll just have to stay pasty-pretty, I never really was big into the tanning scene anyway. So eff you Jersey Shore!
That's about all I can think of to save money. If you have any more advice please comment! My posts are so lonely!
I hope everyone has a fantastic week! :)
Being in university again is great, I love being in class and seeing all my friends again and being in a cultured city with a lot to do. However I don't always have money to do the things I want. Luckily I just won concert tix to see Avril Lavigne. No paying for me! Other than that though, things can get pretty pricey when you live in a big city.
Public transportation alone is about $60 a month if you're a student. It's about $80 if you're not. I got it pretty lucky this year with two other roommates so rent is a bit cheaper, but tuition is still sky high, and of course I'm relying again on student loans. I haven't heard from them in almost two months, I really should get in contact. Something about phoning them scares me a little though, I don't want them to reject me! Just give me what I need. I promise I'm almost done!
In the mean time, here I am, on year 4 of my academic journey? Actually, it might even be 5... That really is sad when I'll only come out of this with a 3-year degree. *sigh* Maybe I should upgrade to a 4-year B.A.?
Anyway, how can I keep myself entertained on the cheap but still have a good time? Luckily I'm a lightweight when it comes to drinking...but we don't always have to drink to have a good time do we?
This past weekend I went on a road trip to Kenora with my cousin John. I only had to pay for my lunch! I guess it's good when you have relatives with vehicles who have that adventurous bone in their body. We also had a BBQ in the park this weekend with some other family members. It was a good time outside. Great burgers and corn on the grill. Yummie! I guess it doesn't take much to keep me satisfied.
Another good part about being a student is there are always socials and events happening around campus. I haven't been to one yet but I'm sure there will be one soon. It's a great way to meet people also. Cover charge is usually free with a student card and drinks are always under 5 dollars.
Another way to get some student deals is with a student price card (SPC). You can get discounts on most stores and also travel deals through Greyhound. I don't mind that going home only costs me about $14. In case anything major happens, that's good to know. I should probably go get my SPC then...
If you were lucky enough to score a job at a coffee shop like I did (I have yet to hear back from them this year) then you get amazing discounts on coffee, which really comes in handy when you're in the middle of an all nighter with ten pages due the next morning. Starbucks is awesome! 30% off everything, can't go wrong with cheap java! I really hope they call me soon!
Thrift Stores! What more can I say? I love a good deal on just about anything. MCC or Value Village are both good places to get stuff dirt cheap. I'm pretty sure they both give 10% off for being a student. Gotta love the perks! Life is going to suck once I graduate... maybe I'll end up being a coupon clipper?
Don't buy new electronics. Just keep using the really worn down slow-as-molasses laptop that you've had since you started uni. At least I'm saving a good chunk of change not being able to afford a new one. Oh how I wish I could! Old faithful is becoming unreliable these days...
Try to buy used textbooks. They are so expensive sometimes, it's really not worth it depending on how much you actually use the book. I'm hoping mine aren't too bad. I haven't actually went to the bookstore yet... Maybe I'll have to do Amazon this year. I hear they have good deals too.
If you're trying to stay in shape, being a student couldn't be more of a Godsend. At the U of W the fitness fee is included in our tuition at only $35/year. If that doesn't persuade anyone to hit the gym I don't know what will. I intend to take advantage. It's really now or never. Who's with me? I need a gym buddy! Pretty soon my life will be all about the GTL...Though I did just realize that the Fabutan down the street is no longer there. Perhaps I'll just have to stay pasty-pretty, I never really was big into the tanning scene anyway. So eff you Jersey Shore!
That's about all I can think of to save money. If you have any more advice please comment! My posts are so lonely!
I hope everyone has a fantastic week! :)
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
The city, school and a fresh start
I'm back in Winnipeg! It's been ten months since I went home during my crazy meltdown. That's something I hope doesn't keep recurring every 20 years...it's nobody's cup of tea.
I'm excited to go to class again! I only have two this term and three next term, so we'll see how it goes. I have yet to find a job in the city. Not sure what the deal is with Starbucks. I wouldn't mind trying something different though. It would be helpful to find something soon however, as my tuition is now past due and I have had no reply from Student Aid. I really should start harassing them...
I hope this year turns out great. I don't see why it wouldn't. I'm in a nice area of the city and I have lots of friends who I haven't seen in a while! I miss them all! I do miss being home sometimes already. The first couple days before I left I was getting a bit melancholy about leaving, I guess I got used to being home near my family. I know they aren't very far if I really need them. It's time to start truly gaining some independence. I think it would be cool to eventually get my own place somewhere. Roommates are cheaper, but I'd love to be on my own. That won't be for a while though.
I have an online English course this year which is something different. It's called American Literature and Culture after 1914. The prof is in B.C. and writes a blog for the class so we can comment and discuss various readings and assignments. I hope I can time manage properly to be successful. I'm sure I can, I'm on the computer all the time anyway. At least now it will be constructive.
The good thing about being in school again is that I have access to the school gym! I really need to take advantage of it, no joke. I know I always complain about losing weight but it really needs to happen. I've noticed I've already started eating less since being here, maybe because there's barely any food in the apartment, which even though it sounds dire, it could be a help in my case. I don't intend to starve, just need to limit my intake. Working out is such a chore. Maybe I can learn to love the gym. It'd be nice to find a gym buddy.
It's only September and already things are changing. The weather is still really warm, but there are people in my life who are taking the next step in their journey and it only inspires me to live my life to the fullest and really take hold of what I can. I'd like to try something new this year, maybe an art or dance class. Something to keep me busy and out of trouble. Not that I get into trouble...
Anyway if anyone has any ideas about what I can do this year that would be fun, let me know!
I'm excited to go to class again! I only have two this term and three next term, so we'll see how it goes. I have yet to find a job in the city. Not sure what the deal is with Starbucks. I wouldn't mind trying something different though. It would be helpful to find something soon however, as my tuition is now past due and I have had no reply from Student Aid. I really should start harassing them...
I hope this year turns out great. I don't see why it wouldn't. I'm in a nice area of the city and I have lots of friends who I haven't seen in a while! I miss them all! I do miss being home sometimes already. The first couple days before I left I was getting a bit melancholy about leaving, I guess I got used to being home near my family. I know they aren't very far if I really need them. It's time to start truly gaining some independence. I think it would be cool to eventually get my own place somewhere. Roommates are cheaper, but I'd love to be on my own. That won't be for a while though.
I have an online English course this year which is something different. It's called American Literature and Culture after 1914. The prof is in B.C. and writes a blog for the class so we can comment and discuss various readings and assignments. I hope I can time manage properly to be successful. I'm sure I can, I'm on the computer all the time anyway. At least now it will be constructive.
The good thing about being in school again is that I have access to the school gym! I really need to take advantage of it, no joke. I know I always complain about losing weight but it really needs to happen. I've noticed I've already started eating less since being here, maybe because there's barely any food in the apartment, which even though it sounds dire, it could be a help in my case. I don't intend to starve, just need to limit my intake. Working out is such a chore. Maybe I can learn to love the gym. It'd be nice to find a gym buddy.
It's only September and already things are changing. The weather is still really warm, but there are people in my life who are taking the next step in their journey and it only inspires me to live my life to the fullest and really take hold of what I can. I'd like to try something new this year, maybe an art or dance class. Something to keep me busy and out of trouble. Not that I get into trouble...
Anyway if anyone has any ideas about what I can do this year that would be fun, let me know!
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